I am really excited for the summer.

Written on | May 27, 2013 | No Comments

I am really excited for the summer, so I can start devoting time to things I am actually interested in. Sometimes I think I mis-placed my degree in something which I like but not which I am especially passionate about. A lot of the time, I am thinking about how late is too late when you are only twenty and whether I should cut my losses. I am excited to fill up my My Future Listography book these next few months. No matter what happens, the future has always been something with the ability to make me feel better.

I have had a lot to get through this past little while. I was telling a friend and they told me how they couldn’t believe how I had managed to cope. I looked back and realised how much I have to deal with and do without going insane or breaking down. I thought about it and have granted myself the right to a few breakdowns. I am covered in bruises and feeling positive and negative in the same breath.

Scintillating update!

Written on | May 20, 2013 | No Comments

You know that saying “buy experiences, not things”?

Well, that’s all fine and well, but recently I’ve been thinking that perhaps what I need to do is the exact opposite! I spend so much money on experiences and things you can’t actually hold or look in your wardrobe and say “I am so glad my hard-earned money bought me that.”

I honestly think that, for a little while, I need to be more materialistic.

Starting with these gorgeous shoes of my dreams.

Blast from the Xanga past.

Written on | May 15, 2013 | No Comments

Something I really want to do is to get all my blogs and Twitter printed into books, because one day the internet will explode/Xanga will finally (and not a moment too soon!) be consigned to the scrapheap and all those memories will be gone forever. Has anyone done this before or have any recommendations for sites?

Anyways, I was looking over my Xanga today expecting to laugh fondly at all the old memories and silly writing .. and I did, but at the same time I was absolutely appalled at the awful pandering for friends and talking freely about people I used to do back then in the caveman days of 2007, like Xanga was the no-man’s-land of Google search. Good grief, I might overthink everything now and take myself far too seriously, but at least I can credit myself with having a bit more common sense.

However, one thing that did turn out to be a gem was my profile from 2009. I might be about a stone heavier with longer and blonder hair, but my profile information could essentially have been written yesterday.

Time, you are a funny thing.

She’s made of flint and roses.

Written on | May 13, 2013 | No Comments

Hi.

For the first time in a long time I’m sitting here with a familiarly huge cup of coffee and on opening this space to write have some things to say. It’s been a while since I’ve had this time to myself with no other deadlines, to look at poems, and tumblr and old blog posts and feel inspired. To admit that I miss writing and want to write more. I miss sitting up late at night with the window open, living the blogger cliché,  writing the first thing that comes into my head .. and then backspacing and thinking of something better.

I’ve been feeling downtrodden by work, uni, and life recently. It is hard to feel interested in my own likes and passions when it is easy to sit back and pay attention to Adam’s instead. It is difficult to feel like what I have to say is important when I am just one in a crowd of people who are supremely uninterested in me.

I am rediscovering that I am one half of a pair, but also a whole in my merit.

Potential dogs of the future!

Written on | May 12, 2013 | No Comments

One of my favourite things to discuss with Adam is what we are going to call our future dogs. We both love dogs, and whilst he has a cute dog of his very own I am just living vicariously through my Gran’s dogs, Rocky and Dolly. Right now my vote is on a really small dog called Margo and a big dog called Titus Pullo. They will be best friends and look hilarious when they are walking along together.

I think dreams about having a dog are the best kind of dreams because there is absolutely nothing stopping us getting one! They are highly attainable.

You can take my money, my preferred job and my dream travel destinations .. but you cannot take my potential dogs of the future!

I can’t wait.